Felix, who was christened Michelle, had been abandoned by his father when he was 3. When he was 5, a stranger sexually abused him, and he was bullied at school (per IMDb). Felix turned to heroin for comfort, and he was soon hooked. Felix, who went by Michelle and presented as female at the time, fetishized shooting up. "The finding a vein, the putting the needle in my arm, and registering, and feeling the pop of the vein, it's like a romantic dinner," she explained in the episode follow-up.
"When I look in the mirror, I think I should see a boy, a man," Michelle admitted. "My body is like a woman's body, and it makes me feel I'm not right." Michelle's friend said she'd never get "in touch" with her gender identity until she got clean. However, Michelle kept shooting up with increasing frequency.
A tearful intervention ended in Michelle heading to rehab. "Now I'm able to deal with my addiction, with the trans issue," Michelle admitted 90 days into treatment. Five years later, Michelle had transitioned to Felix. "It's so weird how it is now," he admitted. "It's not as hard as it used to be." Felix was also madly in love — with his girlfriend, Margot. "My true self was letting someone love me," he revealed. "Trusting someone." When asked about their future plans, the couple announced they hoped to "have a baby next year." Felix continues to maintain his sobriety.
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